Wednesday, November 2
11.3.4
"..sana gumaling ka na agad, para di ka na masaktan.." -Andy
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a couple of nights ago, i dreamt that i was sitting under a giant sunflower. after a while, it started wilting and maggots were eating it.
"ayoko na yakapin o hawakan mo mga kaibigan mo!"
i guess i still got it, huh?
i always have a way with dreams.
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im scared. damn friggin afraid. terrified.
no, love, you're not the only one. sabay tayo.
if God takes this one away, i will lose everything. and..i just wont be able to take it...
hence, the fear.
but damn it all, i will do everything in my power to keep this. to fucking HELL with Fate! ayoko na! di na ako papayag na pagtulak-tulakin nya ako! lalaban ako para dito..para sa kanya..mark me, i will not let this go. ever.
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i understand if you feel scared too..and sad..
yes, looking back down to rock bottom when you're grazing the skies is the biggest scare, even for angels..
but y'know..i just set my gaze on your hands tightly holding mine..
"no, not even the horrifying vertigo will make me let go of you.."
we're still holding on to each other. for me, that's the most important thing..we wont fall as long as we're together still, flying with our solitary wings..
*whispers* di kita iiwan.