Friday, April 22
Apr. 22 Fri.
“Your smile is gently freezing,
snow throws it away..
you’re the laughter in my silence,
the crow that keeps me awake.
Green towel less soft spoken,
Thoughts you never knew;
The lies and empty promises –
I gave them all to you.
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How does it feel?
How is it that I can’t feel?
Coz I, I need to know..
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Coz I, I know I can never be enough
To replace your whatever..
And I, I think it’s shiny and blue,
Like a dance that’s see-through..
Coz I, I know I can never be enough
To replace your whatever..
Now everything is silent,
Everything is still without you near.
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Everything about you -
The world was something new..
And I was there at the open,
Well just to be with you..
But everytime I see the shelter,
Everytime I walk away..
You’re the laughter in my silence,
The cold that feeds my day.
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How does it feel?
How is it that I can’t feel?
Coz I, I need to know..
...
Coz I, I know I can never be enough
To replace your whatever..
And I, I think it’s shiny and blue –
Like a dance that’s see-through..
Coz I, I know I can never be enough
To replace your whatever..
Now everything is silent,
And everything is still without you near.
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And everytime I see you passing by,
I just stand here waiting for you..
And I will talk to myself,
What a lazy Sunday afternoon..
And I’ll still say that prayer for you.
I’ll be your everything, count on me..
I’ll try to be so perfect, you’ll see..
But nothing can compare to you –
Whatever lies out there.” –Neon
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him: “Paano kung hindi ako para sa’yo?”
me: “meaning what?”
him: “..that I’m not good enough for you..”
me: “what if you ARE?”
him: “nagpapatawa ka ba?”
me: “no..”
him: *hugs* “sana hindi na kita masaktan..”
me: “okay lang..mahal naman kita eh..”
him: “I’m telling you..don’t.”
me: “don’t what?”
him: “don’t love me.”
me: “why the hell not??”
him: “..because I don’t deserve it.”
me: “everyone deserves to be loved..”
him: “except me.”
No. ESPECIALLY YOU.
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