Monday, April 18
Apr. 18 Mon. Some fields you might consider going
“I’m watching me make a fool of myself,
Silently speaking my wish to be free..
Turning my world inside out,
Spin my emotions, building my doubt..
...
I fed on this strangeness plain and true,
But there was nothing beneath it, I knew..
I see myself falling from grace –
My love fading without a trace..
...
I’m tired of waiting here for you,
Can’t waste my time, I’m leaving you
I’m tired of waiting here, waiting here –
For you, you, you, you..” –Leaving You
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Hindi ako selosa.
Hindi talaga, eh. Love is never jelous.
Pero, poga! Iba na ‘to!
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Stupid war..
I hate this war!
Actually, I hate the fact that the people fighting it are losing their valuable quality time that they should be spending with the people who they love..and most importantly, who love THEM!
I’m sure im not the only one going through this – sa karami-raming tao na “lumalaban” sa gera’ng to, siguradong marami din na nagseselos kasi yung mga minamahal nila mas binibigyang pansin at oras at damdamin ang mga kaaway – take note, ha? KAAWAY – nila imbis na yung mga minamahal at nagmamahal sa kanila..
Its so damn..pathetic! No offense to those who are fighting here, I know you do it for a cause – proving to the world the injustice and deceit that creature has caused – but please..take time to stop? Please?
You’ve said what you want to say. Please stop. Wala na magagawa ang pag-iinsulto. Furthermore, I don’t want you guys stooping down to her level..don’t you see? This is what she wants! She craves attention, feeds on it..and you’re giving it to her! It doesn’t matter if its negative or positive, ang habol nya ay makilala..mapansin..
Akala ko ba kaaway siya? Eh bakit nyo binibigay sa kanya yung gusto niya?
Okay, fine..masaya mang-insulto. Ako, nasisiyahan din ako – lalo na pag walanyang putang gala’t ragis ang iniinsulto ko. Pero..tao din yan. Kung ano ma’ng kabulastugan ang ginawa niya, hayaan nyo na lang kaya? She’ll get her share in the afterlife – a punishment much worse than what you can do. It’s all a matter of time, ne?
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Over acting nanaman ba ako?
Siguro nga.
Eh kayo rin naman eh!
Tingnan nyo nga sarili nyo? Sige, tingnan nyo.
Oo nga’t sinaktan niya kayo’ng lahat. Sa sari-saring paraan. Masakit. Malupit. Masunog nawa siya sa lupalop ng impyerno’t gahasain ni satanas.
Oo nga gusto nyo gumanti. Kung hindi man ganti, gusto nyo sirain buhay nya. O kaya ibulgar lang sa mundo ang kasamaan at baho niya para di na siya lapitan ng mga “kaibigan” niya.
Giving a few public messages should have done the trick, pero hindi eh..binaha niyo! Fine, nakakatuwa na makita’ng parang wala siya’ng magawa kasi pinagtutulungan niyo siya at ang galing galing nyo.
Pero sumobra kayo. Hindi ako kampi sa kanya, okay? Pero grabe. Sobra na yun.
Ano’ng definition ko ng sobra?
I analyze people. And I say that she’s just narcissistic and suffering from delusions of grandeur. She has an ego the size of Texas, and what you’re doing is feeding her ego.
Insulting her to this extent is too much, coz to any person who didn’t know better, it would seem like she’s the victim. Or worse..that she’s a goddess who single-handedly ruined so many peoples’ lives, and now they’re finally crawling out of the shadows and ganging up on her – regardless of the fact that she’s “skinny” and “wannabe goth” and “practically shapeless”.
You’re complimenting her! Cant you see?!
Its...disgusting!
It makes my skin crawl just thinking about it..you’re actually giving her time of day?? Why the fuck?!
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Okay fine.
Maybe I don’t know any better. Maybe I am just an ignorant person who doesn’t know the whole story.
But I know one thing..
I fuckin miss my plushie.
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To all those fighting this war, I beg of you.
Please..try to take time and look at just what you’re doing..
I’ll bet..you’re all losing sleep..can’t seem to get those insults and fresh ideas of how to get back at your “enemies” out of your heads and mouths..your eyes and fingers are strained from searching the net, reading and typing even more retaliations..nauubos na mga internet cards nyo..sumasakit na mga likod at leeg nyo sa kaka-upo sa harap ng PC..
And worst of all..
You don’t get to spend time with or even listen to your loved ones.
I can tell you one thing. They’re damn scared. Scared that they’re gonna lose you to some half-blood whore who fucked you over in the past..
Is fighting this war and getting sweet momentary revenge worth losing the people who love you now?
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Sure, she’s wrecking everybody’s lives..and she probably won’t stop.
But why don’t you strenthen the bonds and relationships you have with the people you really love and trust – the real ones who won’t leave your side no matter what?
That way, no matter what she does or says, you’ll stay strong together. And nothing can wreck that. Maybe you’ll lose some people, but you would have gained your few, yet true friends.
Okay. Maybe I’m getting all cheesy and pathetic here..but its friggin true!
And besides. Keep this in mind. As my kuya always says..
Its not how many you know. Its WHO you know.
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*grumbles*
I really hate this war..and since everybody seems to still be asleep at 9am [most probably from scheming all night], I’m gonna do what I do best when I’m bored and neglected.
Do them quizzes. Oh yeah.
You are Ayame!
Which Fruits Basket Sohma are you?
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Oh my dear Lord have mercy on my androgynous soul..
You represent... angst.
You have an extremely cynical outlook on just about
everything. It's okay to sulk and be
depressed, but life is short, and you only get
one. It's only what you make it, and only you
can make it improve.
What feeling do you represent?
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Oh well..another one. Need I say I’m pissed right now?
the sad teen. Everything in life is f*ckin'
miserable. You constantly look over your
shoulder and wonder who is judging you...even
when you are alone. So naturally, you have
become a little paranoid and pessamistic. Your
personality can be one demensional but
confusing. You are constantly bored with life
and wish that something could spice it up. You
have a unique view on life and have identified
the problems with school society (Ex...what
makes popular people, how the student mind
works...) You would rather be alone because you
hate being hurt. You tend to think that no one
understands you, not even your parents /
guardians / friends. But that is just the
opposite! The people who love you want to
help, but they don't know how because they have
a feeling that they will say something wrong
and turn you away. You have to let them know
that you are willing to hear what they have to
say...and it might do some good to listen to
them.
in when you are older...Judge, author,
songwriter, producer, therapist, psychologist,
philosopher, or forensic scientist. You need a
job where you can express yourself and your
views on life. Or you need a field where you
can judge others and predict what is going on
in others life. Either way... you have the
personality to get you a good job that will
support you throughout life.
What type of teenager are you?
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*sigh*..how true. I like the pic, though.
In your eyes, people can't seem to see anything
because your eyes are covered up by tears! You
are constantly hurt and depressed... No one
seems to understand how you feel because
everyone is scared to get close to you... You
long to be able to reach out and tell someone
everything, and all of your problems... But you
have no one to tell, or they just don't seem to
want to hear what you have to say. You've been
hurt many times that you don't seem to have any
tears left to shed, or if you do, they're an
endless river flowing... You've started to hide
and bottle up all or your problems and
feelings, hoping that maybe they just will go
away... You want company, but at the same time,
you're scared of it. Your sanctuary is your
room where you can just be alone and try to
throw away all of your aching pains. You're
dark and mysterious and people like you for
that reason. Even if you think you're all by
yourself in the dark, someone is always there
with you. Your special someone wants to admit
and show their feelings towards you, but
they're afraid of how you'll take it. Get out
more and enjoy life because, it is far too long
to frown your way through :)
What Lies Behind Your Eyes? (With Pics, See All Results!)
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*flicks a smile* and I thought quizzes weren’t accurate..
Your inner soul is calling for help! You always
seem so depressed, lonely, and feel like an
outsider. You may have a cold, sad exterior,
but in all reality you are hurt inside and
bottling up all of your anger. Everyday you
wonder why are you still here when there is
nothing left? You use to once be a happy,
loving soul, but it was damaged by 'them' and
seems like it never can be fixed again.
However, you have yet seemed to realize that
there are people out there that deeply care for
you. They secretly have a thing for you because
they find you to be dark, mysterious, and full
of secrets, not to mention being the prettiest
person in the world! You like to enjoy your
time by yourself expressing your feelings
through forms of art, and enjoy nice quiet
scenaries that just dazzle your mind with awe.
Your bedroom is basically your sanctuary where
you can hide out, hidden from those who gave
you all of the pain. Try to loosen up and have
some fun! Never start frowning because you
never know who's falling in love with your
smile :)
What Is Your Inner Soul Trying To Say? (With Pics, See All Results!)
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I used to think chobits was all saccharine cute and shit, but damn..*evil grin* 
The Goddess of Ice and Hope. You are a creative
wonder. Always calm and collected, you hold the
awe of many people and you are exceptionally
logical. You are an inspirational beauty.
Which gorgeous goddess are you? For girls! (breath taking pics!)
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the goddess of ice and hope, huh? Couldn’t have put it better myself.
Your Seduction Style: The Dandy
You're a non-traditionalist, not limited by gender roles or expectations.
Your sexuality is more fluid than that - and you defy labels or categories.
It's hard to pin you down, and that's what's fascinating about you.
You have the psychology of both a male and a female, and you can relate to anyone.
*rofl* you be the judge. *wink*
Your Brain is 33.33% Female, 66.67% Male
You have a total boy brain
Logical and detailed, you tend to look at the facts
And while your emotions do sway you sometimes...
You never like to get feelings too involved
ooooookay, so this pretty much explains it all. :p
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| Personal Information | |
| First Name// | celine |
| Age// | 16 [sometimes older, sometimes younger...] |
| Gender// | erm....somewhere between a newter and a bi... |
| Nickname(s)// | cel, len, len-len, celes, icequeen, shallowcuts, marquise de sadde, celda, tangkad, tangky, sis, plushie |
| Hair Color// | black [minsan blue-black, ewan kung bakit..] |
| Hair Style// | wala. [its just hair. it grows outta your head. gravity pulls it down.] |
| Eye Color// | dark brown [wish ko lang silver grey....haaay!] |
| What is your favorite | |
| Color// | black [or red, if you want to get technical..] |
| Game// | hmm...the Watch Celine Crash and Burn game. [its available in playstation1&2, Xbox, PC, and even true-to-life!] |
| Song// | ....iris. |
| Music Video// | hmm...ah! the 2nd version of Dare You to Move by switchfoot [sobrang astig...its about this guy who 'dies' then 'lives again' in different parts of his life..] |
| Animal// | erm..the mimic octopus [one of the wierdest, wackiest most peculiar creetyurs ob GAAD...] |
| Sport// | archery. [but i quit coz i suck working with a TEAM..] |
| Country// | never been to one..but i guess it would most probably be greece..or italy.. |
| Movie// | the ten commandments! |
| Food// | pizza....penne al brandy... [drool...] |
| Friends | |
| Best// | none.. |
| Funniest// | all of em. [:P] |
| Coolest// | hmm....ate sop. |
| Sweetest// | im not sure..probably beija and ate sop. they smell like strawberries. :P |
| Kindest// | *smiles* basta...marami yan.. |
| Annoyingest// | is there such a word..? anyway...si rosalyn!! |
| Dullest// | che! wala! |
| Stupidest// | wala....ah, me. |
| Most Intelligent// | all of em.. |
| Athletic// | ate sop. :P |
| Relationships | |
| Boy(Girl)friend// | none.. |
| Are you in love right now// | .....yes... [hopefully not with a dream or a lie..not again..] |
| Do you have a crush// | nope |
| Do you have a stalker// | erm...3. [dont ask..] |
| Do you miss someone right now// | yeah. like HELL. |
| What do you do | |
| At school// | daydream |
| At home// | daydream and eat |
| Outside// | try not to spin around in the rain |
| When you first wake up// | *twitch* basta.. [hides] |
| What _____do you hate | |
| Food// | liver. [cant stand the sandy texture..urgh..] |
| Color// | hot pink. [nakakasunog ng mata..] |
| Hair color// | *shrugs* i dunno...rainbow? |
| Tv show// | american idol [its pathetic, really.] |
| Clothing style// | clashing, nagfee-feeling style [ang sarap bigyan ng pera.."o heto..bumili ka ng damit pang-tao] |
| Movie// | erm..vanilla sky..? [it made my soul ache..] |
| Emotions Right Now | |
| Are You Happy Right Now// | not...really... [coz my love isnt happy...] |
| Sad// | yes.. [Fate just won't get off our case..and i feel so..lied to..so pathetic...] |
| Grumpy// | a bit.. |
| Annoyed// | yeah. [at myself for being so stupid..for loving too much..for trusting too much...] |
| Angry// | yes. at this....thing in the mirror.. [i want to kill her...] |
| Sick// | yeah. sick. want to throw up.. |
| Lonely// | very. [i doubt i'll ever rise from this for good..] |
| Bored// | not really. i just want to sleep....sleep...... |
| Have you ever | |
| Made your own religion// | yeah. ["purihin ang mga bassista sa mundo!!"] |
| Written backwards// | sometimes.. |
| Written your own magazine// | sa english project..its called EYRE times [Every Young Reader's Entertainment. oh devah?? chenes!] |
| Drawn art// | all the time.. |
| Got angry with a game// | haha, yeah..got real ugly. [harry potter playstation 1, sa gringotts bank...ang sarap..graarghhh!!] |
| Played Lacrosse// | nope. |
| Broken a bone// | erm..i dont think so.. |
| Dyed your hair// | nope. |
| Put in contacts for no reason// | haha, no way.. |
| Swam alone// | yeah... [felt so good and so damn scary at the same time..] |
| Things that come to mind when you read... | |
| Intelligentence// | er..fluffy pink bunnies hopping around on a cartesian plane.. |
| Stupidity// | crickets...a wet fuse |
| Depress// | punch |
| Blood// | *twitch* the face of Mina Harker when she was licking her lips oh so sensuously after she bit the guy's neck in LXG movie.. [*swoon*] |
| Blue// | sapphire.. |
| Gray// | Draco malfoy's eyes |
| Sword// | ruroini kenshin. |
| Golf// | dad. |
| Soccer// | a black-studded ball..? |
| Yellow// | les' chike. [*laughs*] and the chicks i killed at zamboanga for fun back when i was 7.. |
| Socks// | golden toe |
| Ribbon// | snow white choking to death |
| Random Questions | |
| Play Sports, if so, what ones// | archery |
| Have a lot of friends// | yeah |
| Write good// | i hope so.. |
| Eat a lot// | starting to.. |
| Like the day Friday// | oh yeah.. |
| Like the month December// | its..okay.. |
| Do you(or are you) | |
| (DY)Give good advice// | so they say.. [doctora lavv is in the house!] |
| (DY)Talk crap// | constantly. |
| (DY)Play a lot of games// | yeah..i even make up games in my head. |
| (DY)Wear hats// | nope |
| (DY)Like to be outside// | not really...only to be alone. |
| (AY) Always mad// | nope |
| (AY) Always happy// | hell nope |
| (AY) A good friend// | ...i hope.. |
| This or that (Last questions) | |
| Night or day// | night |
| Snow or Rain// | *twitch* gyah!!! BOTH!! |
| Stars or the Moon// | the dark night sky. |
| Ocean or Pool// | ocean |
| Boat or Plane// | boat |
| Books or Magazines// | books |
| Yu-Gi-Oh Cards or Pokemon Cards// | neither. |
| Blonde or Black Hair// | black |
| Green or Blue Eyes// | green |
| Pants or Shorts// | pants |
| Pop or Rock// | rock |
| Punk or Emo// | emo |
| Tatoos or Piercings// | tatoos.. |
| Necklace or Ring// | erm..depends. |
| Clouds or No Clouds// | clouds.. |
| Art or Literature// | *twitch* daya!! BOTH! |
| Jeans or Baggy Pants// | jeans |
| Singing or Dancing// | singing.. |
| March or May// | march.. |
| Halloween or Christmas// | Christmas i guess.. |
| Coke or Pepsi// | Coke. |
| Hug or Kiss// | ...*blush* |