Sunday, December 26
Dec. 26 Sun.
"And I found out
that we're all breaking hearts -
that we're all broken hearts..
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If only love could find us all,
If only hearts didnt have to fall..
We cant mislead to make things right,
So instead we'll sleep alone tonight." -If Only
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Family reunion.
There were glitches, excuses, delays, raised voices, and rumbling stomachs.
But hey, it wasnt all bad.
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We stocked the Revo with lola Miling's famous mind-blowing food, and drove to my cousins’ new house at Bikutan.
Regine and I had some catching up to do, and her little brothers were all scurrying around as usual, occasionally breaking and fiddling and rewinding things and cds.
Tita Gigi was inhumanly friendly as she always was, and cracked jokes every so often, making me miss and wonder..wonder..
But I stopped that immediately, when Regine-s other cousins arrived.
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yeah, my heart was hammering in my chest.
I knew they were gonna come over, and I knew what I felt a year before didnt have to matter..
But he grew much taller than last year - still a bit lanky and hunchback like me; his voice was a few octaves deeper and smoother, and he was quiet and brooding and polite; and when he spoke, he spoke with respect and substance and humility; and when I stole glances, I saw him laugh and wrestle with the antics of Chris and Angelo, tickling them and smiling in triumph.
He was in third year too..
So yeah, I guess it did matter.
For that one day, I let it matter.
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Us cousins pretty much just hung out in the entertainment room, putting up with the noise and babble of the younger kids, as they ran and played around, playing, pausing, rewinding, and replaying countless scenes from Shrek 2.
We chose to eat outside, awkwardly trying to raise conversations; the fact that I drank a can of cold shandy and a glass of red wine wasnt helping..
But thankfully, we finished fast and went with the gift giving.
Regine and I gawked at our almost exactly similar shirts from Tita Susan - orange collared blouses - but chose to pull them on and model around the house, much to the amusement of pretty much everybody.
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There were a couple of things that really cracked me up that day, and one of them was us watching Bruce Almighty, and the other was the fact that all throughout the party, there was this neighbor kid who wandered into the open gate and doors, and pretty much made himself at home in the house.
Kuya: *sees the kid walk around* "O! Kaninong anak yan?!"
Me: *eyes widen* "K-kuya..r-regine.." *points to the kid* "..multo ba yan..?"
Them: *laughs their heads off*
Regine: "Er..i think its the neighbor..kalaro nina Angelo.."
Kid: *picks up a toy helicopter from the floor* *looks around*
Me: *points to the helicopter control* "Ayun o."
Kid: *grins* *picks up the control* *proceeds playing around*
Me: *returns watching the movie*
Them: *confused stares* *laughs*
I honestly wanted to get to know Regine’s cousins a lot more, since they were our cousins too. They were a nice crowd, and quite witty like their dad.
JC was the eldest, Jerome the second, and Janine the youngest. Although we were quite awkward to each other, we bonded even just a little through watching TV, palying around, and raiding the pantry for snacks, hehe.
Jerome said "Thank you.." out loud to me when I shared my food with them, and that was very touching..since he was deaf and couldnt really talk. I smiled back, wishing so badly that I learned how to do sign language..
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We left all too soon, waving our goodbyes and me being crushed once again with my family and its endless inquisition about my prom and escort, and I could only shake my head at the thought that JC was gonna be crushed next right after we pulled out of the driveway..
*Time was stolen from us* I thought, as I looked at my brother sleeping beside me. There were several very crucial years that were taken away from us because of the damn family problems, depriving us of time..precious time..of bonding and growing with our family and cousins.
I wished I could have known them better, sooner, longer..
But I was thankful that Christmas brought us - and kept us - together.
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"Dont worry, Marie.." I sighed, as her tiny glassy eyes took one long gaze at me, then slapped me away, whimpering in protest..
"Its alright..coz if I were you.." I whispered, letting my eyes stare blankly into the space before me..
"I'd hate me too."
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You are a dark girl. You have a really quiet and
really a i dont' care attitude. You like to be
alone and that is what you enjoy. You don't
like to be around others and you'd rather be
away from here. You have a get away from me
look and others find you bitchy and
self-rigious. You'd rather read than be at a
fair but that's ok because that's who you are.
Who are you inside????? (LOTS OF RESULTS)girls only
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