Monday, July 12
Jul. 12 Mon.
"No one seems to hear your hidden cries,
You're left to face yourself alone...
I can hear you in a whisper,
But you can't even hear me screaming..." -Where Will You Go?, Evanescence
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I died today.
I cried out to heaven for deliverance.
Nobody heard me.
Nobody saw me.
The ones who I thought would sense and help me...
They were too happy.
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It hurt to be alone.
It hurt to know that I would always be alone.
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"Celine...mukha kang binagsakan ng langit..."
*closes eyes*
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But what hurt the most...
Was when I sat there, on the sun-baked steps, waiting for someone who I hoped would come...
But never did.
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Jul. 13 Tues.
"I'm nothing..." -video of Breaking The Habit, Linkin Park
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You asked me what was wrong.
I smiled and just shook my head.
*Nothing.*
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You asked me again.
I looked at you...and just smiled.
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How I longed to pour everything into my words...
Everything...
But my words mean nothing to you.
I am nothing to you...
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So why speak?