Tuesday, July 6
Jul. 6 Tues.
"But oh, God, I feel I've been lied to
Lost all faith in the things I have achieved..." -Away From Me, Evanescence
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This day was weird.
I was in the line along the corridor outside our classroom. As I turned my head, a couple of PE-clad 4th years were briskly walking down the corridor. As they passed by me, I noticed the girl leading them was carefully holding something in her hands. At first, I thought it was a frog. But I noticed it was kinda brown and twitching.
It was a bird.
I looked up at the 4th year student who was holding the hurt bird so tenderly in her hands as she passed by me. When I realized who it was, my eyes widened. I covered my face with my hand and turned away, a faint "Oh God..." escaping my lips.
Beija: *winces* "I know, I KNOW!"
Oh boy.
Can't get more literal than that.
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She sang to me yesterday.
The Reason by Hoobastank.
After 2 and a half years of supressed hatred, anger, and broken love.
She said she was sorry...for the things she did to me, and most especially for the things she failed to do...
She admitted her mistakes, her selfishness and her pride.
She told me she was gonna change now...for the better.
She said she was gonna break her habit of lying.
She said she was gonna start to appreciate me more, and cherish my love and concern for her.
She told me that I inspired her to be a better person.
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She told me...
That *I* was the reason...
The reason she wanted to change.
...and that she WAS gonna change now...
For me...
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me: "Hey...itago mo na yang tarot cards...its against school rules, against our Christian doctrine, at... Ayokong mahuli ka ng teacher...baka ma-formal ka pa..."
her: *looks up at me* *stares* *looks back down at tarot cards* *continues reading for our classmates*
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And I was stupidly pathetic enough to believe her.