Tuesday, March 30
What is your name?: | celine |
Are you named after anyone?: | a ballet dancer *wince* |
What's your screename?: | lots...in different states, hehe |
Would you name a child of yours after you?: | i doubt if i'll even have one |
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?: | Trent |
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: | nobody. i like my name. |
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?: | only when they exchange the 'c' with 's' |
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: | famous or not, i'd change my name after college...if i'd make it till then, hehe |
Basics | |
Your gender:: | more estrogen means im female, right? |
Straight/Gay/Bi:: | androgynous. for full details, contact my mother. |
Single?: | yep |
If not, do you want to be?: | i guess. |
Birthdate:: | october 4 |
Your age:: | 15 |
Age you act:: | depends on the situation |
Age you wish you were:: | 9. i'd change my life. |
Your height:: | around 5 9' i guess |
Eye color:: | dark brown |
Happy with it?: | sure. although id like it glow-in-the-dark |
Hair color:: | black |
Happy with it?: | i guess. i mean, its just a bunch of keratinized dead cells protruding from beneath my epidermis. no big deal |
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous:: | righty |
Your living arrangement:: | uh...living? |
Your family:: | a dad, a 'mom', and an older 'brother' |
Have any pets?: | dogs, cats, bird, chickens, mice, rats, snake(deceased), iguana(deceased) |
Whats your job?: | student |
Piercings?: | two in each ear. two are half-closed, though |
Tattoos?: | over my dad's dead body |
Obsessions?: | *grins* lots. |
Addictions?: | *grins* even more. |
Do you speak another language?: | tagalog and english. bits of chabacano, spanish, latin |
Have a favorite quote?: | two, actually: "love is an illusion meant to fool the feeble...so why does it hurt so much?" "remember, if the world didn't suck, we would all fall off." |
Do you have a webpage?: | yes |
Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it | |
Do you live in the moment?: | rarely. i dwell in the past mostly |
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: | very tolerant. |
Do you have any secrets?: | don't we all |
Do you hate yourself?: | constantly |
Do you like your handwriting?: | its a little messy, but i like it |
Do you have any bad habits?: | *grins* depends on your defenition of 'bad' hehehe. |
What is the compliment you get from most people?: | tall, deep, smart, cold, scary |
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: | 'what heart?' |
What's your biggest fear?: | my loved ones suffering and i can't do anything...to fall in love. to have someone fall in love with me. |
Can you sing?: | *laughs* i guess. but nobody's ever really heard me sing, hahaha! |
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: | not really... |
Are you a loner?: | so they say. but...that's changing now |
What are your #1 priorities in life?: | make a difference in the world, show my true self, make people happy...uh...finish college...? |
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: | nope. id fall in love instantly |
Are you a daredevil?: | if the occassion calls for it |
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: | aside from everything? |
Are you passive or agressive?: | both, if necessary |
Do you have a journal?: | just this blog. real diaries are meant to be burned |
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: | i love too much. (goes for both) |
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: | my posture |
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: | uh...yes. |
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: | oh yeah...wait, scratch that...HELL yeah. |
Do you think life has been good so far?: | sadistic, yes. painful, hell yes...but generally good. |
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: | the only permanent thing in life is change. |
What do you like the most about your body?: | my height. my build. the fact that i can switch from 'girl' to 'androgynous' just by changing my posture |
And least?: | my posture. everybody seems to hate it |
Do you think you are good looking?: | how the hell should i know? don't care. |
Are you confident?: | on extremely rare occassions |
What is the fictional character you are most like?: | Daria Morgendorffer |
Are you perceived wrongly?: | all my life. (even the guidance counselor defined me as 'shallow' and 'mataray') |
Do You... | |
Smoke?: | used to. NEVER SMOKE, YOU GUYS. |
Do drugs?: | almost, by accident |
Read the newspaper?: | sometimes |
Pray?: | always. |
Go to church?: | out of obligation. sometimes, coz it was the only place i knew where i wouldn't be killed |
Talk to strangers who IM you?: | sometimes |
Sleep with stuffed animals?: | just one. Ally. *smiles* |
Take walks in the rain?: | you bet. |
Talk to people even though you hate them?: | yes. |
Drive?: | *nervous laugh* tried to |
Like to drive fast?: | if i could, sure! |
Would or Have You Ever? | |
Liked your voice?: | yeah. it can go from soprano to alto to...barritone, haha. |
Hurt yourself?: | ...constantly. im limited to emotional, though, coz i promised. |
Been out of the country?: | never. (pause) wait...does being in Thailand while still in my mother's womb count? |
Eaten something that made other people sick?: | yeah. *laughs* lots |
Been in love?: | ...*laughing stops*... |
Done drugs?: | almost, by accident |
Gone skinny dipping?: | nope |
Had a medical emergency?: | at least once a year |
Had surgery?: | no |
Ran away from home?: | almost. many times. that was when i still couldn't reach the front door lock, hehe |
Played strip poker?: | *grins, then laughs* yeah. at school with my berks. i ended up under a blanket, blouse-less. |
Gotten beaten up?: | when i was younger |
Beaten someone up?: | through crude telepathy. |
Been picked on?: | always |
Been on stage?: | yes. |
Slept outdoors?: | yeah. |
Thought about suicide?: | ...not a half hour passes that i don't, haha. |
Pulled an all nighter?: | a sleepover, sure. |
If yes, what is your record?: | 5:45am |
Gone one day without food?: | two. |
Talked on the phone all night?: | almost. then she had to hang up, and left me with a knife to my heart. |
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: | i sleep with my dad and bro. go figure. |
Slept all day?: | slept for two days straight. |
Killed someone?: | ...amost. |
Made out with a stranger?: | never |
Had sex with a stranger?: | not in a billion years |
Thought you're going crazy?: | constantly |
Kissed the same sex?: | sure. on the cheek, perverts! |
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: | nope. |
Been betrayed?: | ...*stares blankly*... |
Had a dream that came true?: | several |
Broken the law?: | hehe...i dunno. |
Met a famous person?: | yes |
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: | *nervous laugh* i accidentally stepped on a snail before... |
On purpose?: | *grins* yeah. for full details, contact my partner in crime, my brother |
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: | never |
Stolen anything?: | *grins* used to |
Been on radio/tv?: | i don't think so... |
Been in a mosh-pit?: | *laughs* yeah. i transform. much to the shock of people who knew me before |
Had a nervous breakdown?: | twice |
Bungee jumped?: | nope |
Had a dream that kept coming back?: | yes. |
Beliefs | |
Belive in life on other planets?: | as a child of science, yes. |
Miracles?: | as a child of God, yes. c'mon, i text, call, and chat with miracles everyday. |
Astrology?: | not really |
Magic?: | yeah. |
God?: | yes |
Satan?: | yes |
Santa?: | used to |
Ghosts?: | yes |
Luck?: | not really |
Love at first sight?: | uh...i dunno...love is illogical, but not rash |
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: | yes. |
Witches?: | *nervous laugh* ehehehehe... |
Easter bunny?: | *laughs* if it was holding a bazooka instead of a basket of eggs, sure. CRUSH KO YUNG BUNNY, EH! |
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: | of course. |
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: | no...there's no end of a rainbow, THEY'RE CIRCULAR! |
Do you wish on stars?: | yeah... |
Deep Theological Questions | |
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: | not really. my view is that heaven and hell are not places, but states of being |
Do you think God has a gender?: | no. and even if He was a guy, i wouldn't consider Him as a jerk |
Do you believe in organized religion?: | huh? *blinks* well, what's the use of 'organized' religion, if you don't practice your faith? |
Where do you think we go when we die?: | back to square one |
Friends | |
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: | uh...yeah. |
Who is your best friend?: | don't have one. if i did, that person would be dead. |
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: | nobody. seriously. i don't even know myself, haha. |
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: | three, actually: "don't jump" "open your eyes" "it's okay to cry" |
Your favourite inside joke?: | don't know... |
Thing you're picked on most about?: | that i'm a guy-hater, but ill probably be the 1st one to get married...*twitch* |
Who's your longest known friend?: | uh...my berks, i guess |
Newest?: | te sop, te lalaine, beija, and kyra |
Shyest?: | inna and andy...but whats weird is that, they can also be the most daring at times, haha |
Funniest?: | they're all funny |
Sweetest?: | all of them... |
Closest?: | im...not...sure...there's one that got too close, though...nearly killed her. |
Weirdest?: | they're all weird! *laughs* in their own unique way |
Smartest?: | the're all smart too! occasionaly braindead, though... |
Ditziest?: | issa and my bro. combined forces of the LEF-I (League of the Extreme Fashionably-Inclined) |
Friends you miss being close to the most?: | ...all of them...jo and rae in particular. |
Last person you talked to online?: | issa |
Who do you talk to most online?: | beija |
Who are you on the phone with most?: | i don't use the phone that much. |
Who do you trust most?: | all of them |
Who listens to your problems?: | a select few. *smiles* and of course, God and The Other...as if they have a choice. |
Who do you fight most with?: | myself |
Who's the nicest?: | *grins* in a way, they're all nice... |
Who's the most outgoing?: | *laughs* SI MYKA! LANTARAN YUNG BABAENG YON, HAHA! "gusto ko maging camel!" |
Who's the best singer?: | inna and giselle. *grins* and te sop, and beija, and camille...(jiggly puff!) |
Who's on your shit-list?: | none of them |
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: | no |
Who's your second family?: | they're all my 2nd family! nica and myka are my mom, steph's my grandma, anne's my dad, ate sop and lalaine are my ates, kyra's my widdle sister, and beija's my SIS!!! |
Do you always feel understood?: | uh...no. |
Who's the loudest friend?: | *laughs* MYKA AND INNA! |
Do you trust others easily?: | uh...not really...not all the time...due to past trauma with untrustworthy people |
Who's house were you last at?: | te sop's |
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in:: | secret. |
Do your friends know you?: | i dunno...not really |
Friend that lives farthest away:: | at the moment, beija. argh, 25 days and counting |
Love and All That | |
Do you consider love a mistake?: | if it's associated with me, yes. |
What do you find romantic?: | when someone admits that...there are no words. |
Turn-on?: | *laughs* simple things...almost ordinary things. you wouldn't believe how ordinary |
Turn-off?: | tactlessness, close-mindedness, insensitivity |
First kiss?: | Pain. *grins* made Death jelous, haha |
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?: | nothing. it would never happen, anyway. |
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going: | sure, i guess. gives them more time to scuttle away, before i kill them when they turn out to be jerks |
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out: | i guess... |
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractiv: | nobody's physically unnatractive. |
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: | don't know, don't care, don't give a damn. but for their sake...i sure as hell hope not. |
What is best about the opposite sex?: | nothing. i hate guys. |
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: | aside from everything? the fact that they they think scoring more and breaking more hearts makes them more of a guy. *growls* |
What's the last present someone gave you?: | pair of shades...from my dad. *smiles* |
Are you in love?: | ...*smile subsides*... |
Do you consider your significant other hot?: | *raises eyebrow* |
Who Was the Last Person... | |
That haunted you?: | *wince* |
You wanted to kill?: | myself |
That you laughed at?: | myself |
That laughed at you?: | The Other |
That turned you on?: | *raises eyebrow* secret |
You went shopping with?: | my bro...*twitch* |
That broke your heart?: | ...*twitching stops*...what heart...? |
To disappoint you?: | myself |
To ask you out?: | anne. we have a date today! *grins* |
To make you cry?: | ...*grin subsides*...myself. |
To brighten up your day?: | the thought of te sop, beija, te lalaine, and my berks *laughs* |
That you thought about?: | ...*laugh subsides*...her. |
You saw a movie with?: | three of my torturers |
You talked to on the phone?: | giselle...pulled me, that one. and she didn't even know it. |
You talked to through IM/ICQ?: | issa |
You saw?: | my bro |
You lost?: | him...and her...i lost them even before i had them... |
Right This Moment... | |
Are you going out?: | *grins* yeah. i have a date with anne. *laughs* |
Will it be with your significant other?: | *laughs even more* no, she's not my significant other. batong-bato lang talaga sha sa bahay. |
Or some random person?: | one of my Reasons. |
What are you wearing right now?: | *nervous laugh* my bro made me wear it...i'm in 'girl' mode today...its blue, i'll give you that...and bare...and...*twitches*...trust me, you DO NOT WANT TO KNOW. |
Body part you're touching right now:: | my face... |
What are you worried about right now?: | how anne and everyone is going to react when she sees me like this...that my bro's gonna take a candid pic of me. |
What book are you reading?: | none at the moment |
What's on your mousepad?: | uh...the mouse...? |
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling:: | empty, nervous, empty, weird, empty... |
Are you bored?: | to death |
Are you tired?: | you have no idea...but i can't sleep, though, i promised i wouldn't for the summer...*twitch* |
Are you talking to anyone online?: | no |
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: | no |
Are you lonely or content?: | lonely AND content...as if i have a choice |
Are you listening to music?: | uh...yes...'the color of love'...brings back memories... *sigh* |