Thursday, March 4
Mar. 4 Thursday
It's really weird waking up to another day...when you know you weren't supposed to wake up at all.
I...don't really know what to say...anymore. So many things happened last night. Thinking that I hurt someone again, I decided to end it. Right then and there. No matter what they were typing on the screen, I couldn't bear the thought of hurting people anymore. *It ends tonight.* But...they...wouldn't let me. They didn't let me. I was really gonna jump...teetering on the brink...and they pulled me, yanked me, practically kicked me away from the edge. How was I supposed to believe this? How? How could three people who hardly knew me possibly love me? How could they possibly even care for me at all? That much? So much that they would all jump after me if I did? But more importantly for me: Why? Why? I was asking it over and over again, hoping that the one answer they gave me was not real...or that it would have more logic to it. I was begging for an explanation. But there was no explanation. They were saving me. Because they loved me. That was all. *sobrang simple, pero sobrang grabe ang ibig sabihin.* For once...for once in my seemingly God-forsaken twisted existence...I didn't have to hide. I didn't have to push push myself away. Here are three people who are just like me. And they were saving me from myself. And I will save them too.
Maraming salamat, guys.
Ngayon ko lang nahalata kung ano talaga ang dahilan kung bakit pinapabayaang mabuhay pa rin ako ng Diyos. Kahit na nagdurusa ako nang husto. Na parang walang rason.
Siguro dahil...
Sa pagdurusa ko...
Natutulungan ko rin pala ang ibang tao.
O ayan.
Inaamin ko na.
Seryoso kayo.
Hindi lahat may eksplanasyon.
Basta na lang.
E, kung mahal mo, yung tao, eh!
Hehe.
Maraming salamat.
Wow.
May dalawang nadagdag sa listahan ko...
13 na!
Here. This song is dedicated to all of my Reasons. You know who you are. Thank you so much. I send these lyrics out to you. And quite surprisingly, everything I need to say is in this song. Everything. The melody is real cool. I hope you get to hear the song. This song was first aired a few days ago. Funny...that was the time when I thought I ran out of reasons.
Mahal ko kayo.
*Lalo na kayo*.
Basta.
*Don't go anywhere.*
The Reason
by: Hoobastank
I'm not a perfect person
So many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
*At kung may problema kayo, wag namang tinatago lang, kasi nararamdaman ko rin yan! Hahahaha!*